This evening I am everything but speechless.. This evening a statement bishop Jakes used to always say is swarming back and forth in my mind..”Either your going to make a choice to believe God or not!” Not too terribly long ago I started reading a book called “Believing God” by Beth Moore. It opened my eyes so much to the fact that there are so many people that believe in God. They will tell you in a moment, “yea, I believe in God” but they do not believe God to save their life.
There’s a big difference there.. You see when I believe God that means that I believe that He can do exceedingly, abundantly, above all I could ask or think. When I believe God.. I know that no matter what happens to me all things are working together for my good. I am comfortable conforming my mind because I believe that to become more like His Son Jesus Christ is my ultimate purpose. When I am here at home with my children to believe God means that I will plan my life around purpose of raising up a godly seed for Him. And in my marriage, when it comes to being a godly woman, a proverbs 31 woman a woman of Ephesians 5:33 who see’s to it that she respects her husband.. I align all my beliefs to the truths of the word because I believe that when I do.. it is there I will have life more abundantly!
Those that know me well, know that I preached for awhile back in New Orleans. God dealt with me awhile about a prophetic gift when He called me to preach. I will not back down from that calling even now because it took me so many confirmations to move forth in it.. and there was so much opposition that came against me when I accepted that calling, even just 2 weeks before my first sermon I was raped by the head deacon.. These are unforgettable things.. You see the devil has always wanted to sit me down because God has always had a plan for me to be conformed to what His will is for me because when I am in tune with that I am doing a lot of damage to the kingdom of hell..
So I go back to my statement.. Even now, even here the word for the believer, who professes to know and love Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior would be.. Are you being discipled by Him because you believe Him, or just walking from a distance believing in Him..
God is such a great God, He can do exceedingly, abundantly above all we may ask or think, but the truth is this.. either we will spend our lives submitting to His will, or trying to get Him to submit to ours.. You see He will never submit to the will of my flesh the worst I can do is die a miserable death then go to be in hell.. To seek pleasures and thrills is hedonism, that’s what the world wants, and to seek money and the things it can buy me is materialism.. That’s still off.. What I want is to be in the center of His will.. and maybe one day I will preach again, but as for me, right now.. I preach in the 4 walls of my house, God has blessed me to have a faithful and true husband and 2 wonderful children who are such huge responsibilities and blessings I do not take lightly that I will commit to serving Him in this respect until He says otherwise!